Dark Horse Arts and Sciences

I’m an out-and-out pessimist. I used to be an optimist back in the day, but as life gradually unfolded its diverse, complex layers, optimism began to fade away from the boundary of my consciousness. In the back of my subconscious mind, images of life as a wholly beautiful and ethereal experience started getting blurred as a foggy winter evening. All the information about life being this and that started forming a cloud, a cloud receding away from me as time proceeds further and further. Things that once seemed beautiful and desirable began to unfurl before my eyes their dark and shady notions of reality, a reality so far-fetched from what we have been fed into since our innocent childhood, a childhood filled with utter lies and unexpected dreams, dreams that are unfathomable, dreams that will only remain as they are through the rest of our lives, dreams that we are capable of fulfilling only within the periphery of our fantasized imagination.

People post positive quotes, not for anyone else, but for them and them only. They are not trying to convince anyone else, but themselves. They are just looking for some source of motivation outside, whereas they haven’t searched it within. It may sound really cliché, but motivation can only come from within the being, there is no alternative. All the motivational speakers and books, they only put a false image inside your mind, creating an environment of something I would call “toxic positivity”.

Optimism may sound pleasing and ear-soothing, but what it does is it creates a distance between you and practicality. The more positive your thoughts become, the more distant you get from real life situations. You don’t think about practical circumstances, rather you start avoiding them, convincing your inside-self that you are being positive. But did positivity help you? No, it didn’t. However, It simply made you avoid the real situation, kept you at an arm’s length from reality, instead it pushed into a corner of utter ignorance, ignorance of the fact that there is something wrong going on, yet you are avoiding it. You are not recognizing the odds, you are not facing the current, instead running away from it. You are slowly getting drenched in a world full of unreality and fantasized ideas, a world that seems beautiful, devoid of any suffering or pain, but it’s not true. Furthermore, you are running away from the truth, and soon you shall pay the price.